Theres so many times I've let you down..

23/7/2010

5.20 a.m

I received a call. and she said she's gonna leave me. for a while. until my competition is done. and give me assurance, that she will not leave me. 

I was shocked, sad, feel like I am down. maybe she didn't realized that she is my spirit. maybe she didn't realized that I need her support. to support me throughout this competition. Why is this happening? Why? How could she said that to me? 

Can I say to her, at least at the time when she needs me the most, and I'll say that, " I takkan contact you, until you are ok, so takde la u nak terasa or kene dengar I cakap bukan-bukan".

She didn't know what I felt every time I am busy, I feel so so so damn guilty. and I don't know how to make her understand. hurmm.

Theres so many times Ive let you down
So many times Ive played around
I tell you now, they dont mean a thing
Evry place I go, Ill think of you
Evry song I sing, Ill sing for you
When I come back, Ill bring your wedding ring