Did you know something?

First of all, don't ever tell me that you know me. Because, you don't know how to stop my tears, you don't know how to lift my sorrow and you don't know what is playing in head and on my heart. Until you do, don't ever claim that you know me. As I am learning how to do the things stated above, I also don't know you...very well.

Stop asking why is this why is that. Don't you know that boys also get emosional? I don't think you know it. Well, do you know what is the meaning of jealousy? I don't think you know. Do you know the feeling of un-secure? No.

Stop asking me question because I don't know the answer. Sometimes I just wondering, why should I become like this. When someone is saying bad, I do feel bad. When that someone is ok, I am not ok. Yes, me myself don't know the answer, how should I answer? 

I guess this is the best answer I can give. I am in love with you, I am in a relationship with you. I do get jealous and I do feel unsecured when someone step into your life. Furthermore when that someone is 'someone' to you before and yes, why don't you put yourself into it. So you no need to ask me more.

And while I am typing it, a message come into my phone, saying that you will off your phone. And your birthday is just around a corner. May I ask you something? Is that how you settle a problem in our relationship? You were so good in accepting someone who was someone in your life but you aren't so good with someone who are already in your life? 

p/s : kadang-kadang kan, i tertanya2 jugak. you takde fikir ape-ape ke? Kenape I kene sediakan semua sekali? Kenapa I kene jawab ape yang I rasa dlm hati I,sedangkan you have my heart and you know the answer? you with him, were talking more than what you tell me. You lie to me but I didn't blame you, because I know why kan?

Jealousy,
Before you entered
Into my life,
I was the world's
Richest prince.
Now that you are in me
And I am for you,
I have become
The poorest street-beggar.